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Sunday, May 15, 2005
REALLY ANGRY....
Why do I do this to myself? Woke up at half ten/ eleven....ate a bowl of cereal...and then, NOTHING!!!
have not had anything to eat since then...
its almost as if I decide not to do anything on a certain day-not even eat...
so i lie curled up in bed- drifting in and out of sleep..would have read probably had I a decent book to read...
and get bad dreams on an empty stomach....of a place long ago, of being alone amongst lots of people...
and wake up- too hungry to move to get myself something to eat....with some amount of supreme effort I get up and get the first thing I see in the fridge- yoghurt....
thank god for the half an hour of sustenance it provides....time to quickly cook something more substantial.. or else " create a post"!
why do i do this to me? wish i could shout at myself, give myself a good shake ... wish they made pills which would do instead of food...
have not had anything to eat since then...
its almost as if I decide not to do anything on a certain day-not even eat...
so i lie curled up in bed- drifting in and out of sleep..would have read probably had I a decent book to read...
and get bad dreams on an empty stomach....of a place long ago, of being alone amongst lots of people...
and wake up- too hungry to move to get myself something to eat....with some amount of supreme effort I get up and get the first thing I see in the fridge- yoghurt....
thank god for the half an hour of sustenance it provides....time to quickly cook something more substantial.. or else " create a post"!
why do i do this to me? wish i could shout at myself, give myself a good shake ... wish they made pills which would do instead of food...
posted by Runglee # 6:18 PM 
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