Lost Random Chatter

there is nothing to do- no, not really that- really millions of things to be done, but nothing to do..and time just stands still...

and u wonder whether any of it is real?
do other people exist-do u exist....

yoghurt- strawberry syrup....and what is sweet? and what defines strawberry?

do u exist because of them? all relative.. (Hail Einstein!)

and u could sit there staring at nothing and disappear into nothingness...like the faint warm smell of your room, there - but difficult to place...
like the colour white.....not no colour, but colour you can't quite call colour, the sum of all colours?

and it is fun to get lost in the abstract, use words to define things to define relationships, to negate feelings, to justify who u are and why.

and think and think aimlessly ( would you call that meditation- thinking for the sake of thinking? )....


But nothing icecream can't cure...
Bailey's ? Blueberry? Chocolate chip and mint? and one that i tasted at a school fair long long ago, demon's envy - honest! and it was sweet yet tangy and Green- so long ago that i didn't stop to think that the colour must be all additives, and who in their right mind would want to poison themselves like that ?

So icecream it is... and people...friendly faces ...smiles... "So, how've u been?" " Isn't it great to see so much of the sun ?!" "..and not to have piles of work...!" " G&D's is fabulous...amazing, huh!" "Oh! I looooove ice cream." " nah, it hurts my teeth"

And u look at them, and wonder whether or not they really are... and are eyes really windows to the soul? a soul?

"Life is but a dream......."

Oh, its just one of those days...