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Saturday, May 14, 2005
It is funny
a poem i wrote a long time ago...
when i was 13/14 years old- the person i was never ceases to surprise the person i am... that 6 years ago i could've tried to grasp at something that zens in on me at 20...
yes, it is funny!
"Things change, they grow,
Funny that I have never realised how much I've grown,
That I never knew what I was, what I am,
Funny, that I still don't understand.
Funny, that at every instant i discover a new me,
Funny that mostly other people discover it for me,
Funny that everytime I think I've understood,
It all changes again.
Funny, that feelings trick me into so many things,
Funny, that I never understand that i've been 'tricked',
That I can trick myself,
Funny, that I don't mind having been tricked.
Funny, that committments get made by themselves,
Funny, that they break by themselves,
Funny, that when I think it has ended,
It begins all over again.
It is funny that I yet don't laugh... at it all!"
The poem came to my mind today post an insignificant conversation on msn...someone i once worshipped....
....IT IS FUNNY!
IT IS GODDAMN BLOODY FUNNY!
......it is funny how u think u know people....and then sumone flicks on a switch- and forces you to see them in a different light....garish reds, deathly blacks, and the sickly brown of rotten bananas..
fine, " Thou shalt not be judgmental"... but how do u decide? how do I decide?
....where do you stop being judgmental and actually start condoning wrongs?
no wrongs and no rights...but hurt is hurt....
And it is difficult when you are reduced to a helpless observer... there crashes the pedestal on which u placed your demi god and you see her sitting there- tears welling in her eyes, and wounds still festering after all that time.. why her? why him?
it is funny.... and no, after 7 years, I wouldn't write a poem like that...and no, I still haven't learnt how to laugh at it all...
when i was 13/14 years old- the person i was never ceases to surprise the person i am... that 6 years ago i could've tried to grasp at something that zens in on me at 20...
yes, it is funny!
"Things change, they grow,
Funny that I have never realised how much I've grown,
That I never knew what I was, what I am,
Funny, that I still don't understand.
Funny, that at every instant i discover a new me,
Funny that mostly other people discover it for me,
Funny that everytime I think I've understood,
It all changes again.
Funny, that feelings trick me into so many things,
Funny, that I never understand that i've been 'tricked',
That I can trick myself,
Funny, that I don't mind having been tricked.
Funny, that committments get made by themselves,
Funny, that they break by themselves,
Funny, that when I think it has ended,
It begins all over again.
It is funny that I yet don't laugh... at it all!"
The poem came to my mind today post an insignificant conversation on msn...someone i once worshipped....
....IT IS FUNNY!
IT IS GODDAMN BLOODY FUNNY!
......it is funny how u think u know people....and then sumone flicks on a switch- and forces you to see them in a different light....garish reds, deathly blacks, and the sickly brown of rotten bananas..
fine, " Thou shalt not be judgmental"... but how do u decide? how do I decide?
....where do you stop being judgmental and actually start condoning wrongs?
no wrongs and no rights...but hurt is hurt....
And it is difficult when you are reduced to a helpless observer... there crashes the pedestal on which u placed your demi god and you see her sitting there- tears welling in her eyes, and wounds still festering after all that time.. why her? why him?
it is funny.... and no, after 7 years, I wouldn't write a poem like that...and no, I still haven't learnt how to laugh at it all...
posted by Runglee # 8:05 PM 
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